Every morning when I wake..
My existence seems to me to be so fake..
Pretending to be somebody else, Am I just an apostate?
grappling my soul to become somebody it was not
the soul digressing elsewhere, this storm is not going to abate
As I see my reflection in the mirror while I clean my teeth..
So helpless I feel, my alter ego taking a back seat..
As I take the bath, thinking it would make me pure
So many guilts scorching my conscience, make me so unsure..
As I spend other day in office, I sold my body and soul
Standing at the edge of the cliff , but not ready to make the fall
As I go to bed at night to take some rest
My mind taunting me
'How can u just sleep boy, when once again you've failed the test
When you were kid, I taught u to be free
You forgot my lesson, accepted your bonded labour with glee.
When you were kid, I taught u character
You killed your soul, turned into a malefactor
When you were kid, I taught you to be true..
You crossed all your limits, lied to everyone, just to get through..
When you were kid, I taught you to be humble..
You shred to pieces eveyone's feelings, like u r king of a jungle..
When you were kid, I taught u to love ur parents and take their care
You earn a million bucks here, they weep for you there, your presence so rare..
How can u just sleep boy, when once again you've failed the test'
Monday, July 7, 2008
Sunday, July 6, 2008
'I Lose You win'
Once upon a time, I was sitting free
Nothing to do, bored to a very high degree
Soon an idea hit my mind, why not play a game
Called my friend devil and said "Would u help me in the same"
He said 'Yes.. I am also bored..Lets rock and roll"
'Lets play the game but friend What is the goal?"
'Goal is simple my friend..'
'There is a place called Earth I created
where the people are very contend'
'Thats good.. God... What you wanna me to do?'
'Devil..Go there and just do what you are made to'
'Spread hate,violence, dissatisfaction, hunger and anger'
'And continue doing it till they don't surrender'
'I have got full confidence in them that they will not be obtuse'
'If they do then you win and my friend, I lose'
'Ok God lets start the game'
'If I win I will be the lord and you will just be a name'
Devil came to Earth, thought what a beautiful place
God you are an artist but you have got no brains
You have ruled the world for long now the turn is mine
The world will be at my feet, God, I remember once you called me a swine
Now Let me start the work, I have more work to do and I have got no time
All the people here are same, All is white and so beautiful
Lets color some of them with black and brown
and see the result, Does it make them frown?
Who the hell are you..black ugly guy..
From where have you come.. and made the earth cry.
Oh..God has sent you to be our slaves
Work for us otherwise u got no food, no water and no place..
'First Mission accomplished' Devil thought
But lets spread it further by further dividing the lot..
Let me make the religions as soon as it can happen...
And God this would be my most potent weapon ...
Dividing the people on your name.
You started this game, You knew I am insane..
Soon there was hue and cry and unrest..
This piece of land is mine, dont you know my God is the best..
Blood and tears everywhere..
The beautiful Earth was turned into a gory sphere..
'Yippee..'' Devil yelled
"That was a master stroke"..
I have got the game by its throat..
But still I have got one more thing left..
Take power of creation from God and leave him bereft
'Devil stop... I lose..you win..'
'You be my lord but leave the humanity akin..'
I am aggrieved at my creation..
But what should I do as I love them as my children..
I gave them mind and also a heart..
But heart never used when mind was tearing apart..
They hate the black when its on a skin..
Dont they know how much black is in within?
They labeled me as Allah and Jesus, to fight
Gave so many bruises on my body, they wont understand my plight..
Now they want to create life, they want it all.
They can clone a body but can they clone a soul?
'Devil stop..I lose..you win..'
Nothing to do, bored to a very high degree
Soon an idea hit my mind, why not play a game
Called my friend devil and said "Would u help me in the same"
He said 'Yes.. I am also bored..Lets rock and roll"
'Lets play the game but friend What is the goal?"
'Goal is simple my friend..'
'There is a place called Earth I created
where the people are very contend'
'Thats good.. God... What you wanna me to do?'
'Devil..Go there and just do what you are made to'
'Spread hate,violence, dissatisfaction, hunger and anger'
'And continue doing it till they don't surrender'
'I have got full confidence in them that they will not be obtuse'
'If they do then you win and my friend, I lose'
'Ok God lets start the game'
'If I win I will be the lord and you will just be a name'
Devil came to Earth, thought what a beautiful place
God you are an artist but you have got no brains
You have ruled the world for long now the turn is mine
The world will be at my feet, God, I remember once you called me a swine
Now Let me start the work, I have more work to do and I have got no time
All the people here are same, All is white and so beautiful
Lets color some of them with black and brown
and see the result, Does it make them frown?
Who the hell are you..black ugly guy..
From where have you come.. and made the earth cry.
Oh..God has sent you to be our slaves
Work for us otherwise u got no food, no water and no place..
'First Mission accomplished' Devil thought
But lets spread it further by further dividing the lot..
Let me make the religions as soon as it can happen...
And God this would be my most potent weapon ...
Dividing the people on your name.
You started this game, You knew I am insane..
Soon there was hue and cry and unrest..
This piece of land is mine, dont you know my God is the best..
Blood and tears everywhere..
The beautiful Earth was turned into a gory sphere..
'Yippee..'' Devil yelled
"That was a master stroke"..
I have got the game by its throat..
But still I have got one more thing left..
Take power of creation from God and leave him bereft
'Devil stop... I lose..you win..'
'You be my lord but leave the humanity akin..'
I am aggrieved at my creation..
But what should I do as I love them as my children..
I gave them mind and also a heart..
But heart never used when mind was tearing apart..
They hate the black when its on a skin..
Dont they know how much black is in within?
They labeled me as Allah and Jesus, to fight
Gave so many bruises on my body, they wont understand my plight..
Now they want to create life, they want it all.
They can clone a body but can they clone a soul?
'Devil stop..I lose..you win..'
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Memoirs unvieled..
[Statuatory warning: This is meant to be read only by the people who have open minds, who dont have a problem with bad language being used and bad thoughts creeping in the minds]
Its hard to find true friends. But when you find them you get moments which remain in your memories forever. You cherish those moments, feel those moments , miss those moments. You want to relive them. Well, I am reliving mine with one of my best pals.. Kamal.
A day before exam, which most of us would like to forget, made unforgettable by a series of events.
A day before 'FM' exam [FM - Fluid Management ...
Fluid Measurments..
Fluid something..yaar dont remember]
Kamal at bansi's place.
Time -2.00 pm
Time left till exam - 19 hours
Course covered - Nil
"Chal Bansi , Lets start our studies.. yaar is baari phodna hai.............................................."
Long pause...
"toone"...............
Long pause..
Huge round of laughter..
"bas yaar mujhe paas kara de..".. kamal
"Ok.. lemme check out the course".. bansi
"Call Gandhi..Dont waste your time"...kamal
(Ashish Gandhi, The topper of the class whose notes are the rozi roti for photostat machine waale bhaia and whose phone is the lifeline to 57 people lives.. Once his phone was dead, it cost 4 people their lives...All of them got Re's)
"Ok.." bansi
"Ask him only the important questions.." kamal
"I know saale..." bansi
Calling Gandhi...
"Aur Gandhi pan[Beep].. maa[Beep]... kiddan hoia paper.. ".. kamal
Prolonged silence from the other side..
"Ashish tera phone hai..."
Silence...
Huge round of laughter..
"haloooooo...kaun".."Gandhi sounding sleepy and irritated
"pan[Beep].. maa[Beep]"..kamal
"Haan Kamal bol.."..Gandhi
"kya bol..course bata.."..kamal
"blah-blah-blah-blah-................................
-blah...
Bye"...Gandhi
Time - 2.30
Time left - 18.30
Course completed - Nil
"Yaar..Its too much.."...bansi
"Dont worry..tu kar lega"...kamal
"Book de.."...bansi
Kamal searches the bag to find FM book.. Finds nothing..
"Yaar bansi.."
long nervous pause
"book to ghar reh gayi"... kamal
"saale..kutte..kamine.. ".. bansi (The only Non veg words bansi speaks. In his mind he hurls other abuses as well.. )
"Get it asap..nahin to"...
Kamal leaves without a word said, trembling with fear ...
Time - 5.00
Time left - 16 hours
Course completed - Nil
Door bell rings..
"Manu..Kamal is there"..Mom
"Ask him to go away...I dont wanna talk to him.. saala fail hoga ony then ise akal aegi".. bansi
"yaar..sorry...aankh lag gayi thi"...kamal
"saale I m waiting 4 u for 2 hours..tu mujhe fail karaega"...bansi (Although he also slept in the meanwhile)
"nahin yaar bansi...tu kar lega".. kamal
"chal theek hai..koi nahin..lets start"...bansi (Sounding as if he is doing some kind of ehsaan on Kamal)
"bansi yaar.. " ..kamal
"Yaar thoda fresh ho jaate hain...Lets go to the park for a quick round."..kamal
'Quick..r u sure..saale tu mujhe fail karvaega"
"nahin tu kar lega"
Place - Park
Time - 5.30
Time left - 15.30 hours
Course completed - Nil
"yaar bansi..today she was wearing pink suit.. looking awesome"
(She's identity cant be revealed.. made a promise to kamal...so She'll be referred as 'She' in this blog)
"i know.." ..bansi
"She is so beautiful.." kamal
"Ya..Her figure is awesome"... bansi
"Kutte.. she is your bhabhi.."..kamal
"Ya...bhabhi's figure is awesome"...bansi
"Kutte..saale tum kutte log will never understand true love.."..kamal
"Yaar.. There is nothing like true love.. There is only one thing...".. bansi pulling kamal's leg
"You dirty fella..one day you will understand"..
"chal na"
Discussion goes on..
Time - 8.00 pm
Time left - 13 hours
Course completed - Nil
"Watt lag gayi yaar.."..bansi
"Chal yaar shuru kar de padhai.."..kamal
"Ok..tu peeche se kar..I'll start from the beginning'...bansi
"See u after an hour"...bansi
After Half an hour...
"Yaar bansi.. I cant study..main to pharre bana raha hoon"...kamal
"saale teri roz ki yahi kahaani hai"...bansi
"chal kal milte hain..paper main..bye"... kamal
Exam day
Place - DH1
Time - 8.45
Time left - 15 min
"Ho gaya course khatm"...kamal
"nahin saale... 2 chapter reh gaye"..bansi
"Mere to saare ho gaye.."kamal
"Saare chapters ke pharre bana liye"bansi
"yes"
"Chal..All the best"..bansi
"Same to you"...kamal
Exam ends..
Bansi meets Kamal..
"Yaar bansi..She was looking awesome in blue suit today..I couldn't concentrate.."..kamal excited
"Yaar paper was tough..Pass hoga ke nahin?".. bansi exhausted but confident
"Bansi yaar, She talked to me today..."... kamal
"What?"
"Aaj us ne mujh se pen maanga"..kamal
"Haha..chal saale..Kal SM ka paper hai..phati padi hai" bansi
"Haan..I.. .I .... 2 baje milte hain..bye" kamal
(Kamal goes to the library to get a chance to see her and talk to her, as she usually goes to library for her studies)
Bansi and Kamal meet at 2 pm at Bansi's house to 'study' for SM and the same saga continues.....
After few days, Result was declared
bansi - 73 %
kamal - 74 % (Abe dont think he is intelligent,pharre use kiye the us ne bhai..) .. But still dejected.. because..
..
...
....
..... He finally proposed her and got rejected..
[So you have read.. hmm... dirty mind]
Its hard to find true friends. But when you find them you get moments which remain in your memories forever. You cherish those moments, feel those moments , miss those moments. You want to relive them. Well, I am reliving mine with one of my best pals.. Kamal.
A day before exam, which most of us would like to forget, made unforgettable by a series of events.
A day before 'FM' exam [FM - Fluid Management ...
Fluid Measurments..
Fluid something..yaar dont remember]
Kamal at bansi's place.
Time -2.00 pm
Time left till exam - 19 hours
Course covered - Nil
"Chal Bansi , Lets start our studies.. yaar is baari phodna hai.............................................."
Long pause...
"toone"...............
Long pause..
Huge round of laughter..
"bas yaar mujhe paas kara de..".. kamal
"Ok.. lemme check out the course".. bansi
"Call Gandhi..Dont waste your time"...kamal
(Ashish Gandhi, The topper of the class whose notes are the rozi roti for photostat machine waale bhaia and whose phone is the lifeline to 57 people lives.. Once his phone was dead, it cost 4 people their lives...All of them got Re's)
"Ok.." bansi
"Ask him only the important questions.." kamal
"I know saale..." bansi
Calling Gandhi...
"Aur Gandhi pan[Beep].. maa[Beep]... kiddan hoia paper.. ".. kamal
Prolonged silence from the other side..
"Ashish tera phone hai..."
Silence...
Huge round of laughter..
"haloooooo...kaun".."Gandhi sounding sleepy and irritated
"pan[Beep].. maa[Beep]"..kamal
"Haan Kamal bol.."..Gandhi
"kya bol..course bata.."..kamal
"blah-blah-blah-blah-................................
-blah...
Bye"...Gandhi
Time - 2.30
Time left - 18.30
Course completed - Nil
"Yaar..Its too much.."...bansi
"Dont worry..tu kar lega"...kamal
"Book de.."...bansi
Kamal searches the bag to find FM book.. Finds nothing..
"Yaar bansi.."
long nervous pause
"book to ghar reh gayi"... kamal
"saale..kutte..kamine.. ".. bansi (The only Non veg words bansi speaks. In his mind he hurls other abuses as well.. )
"Get it asap..nahin to"...
Kamal leaves without a word said, trembling with fear ...
Time - 5.00
Time left - 16 hours
Course completed - Nil
Door bell rings..
"Manu..Kamal is there"..Mom
"Ask him to go away...I dont wanna talk to him.. saala fail hoga ony then ise akal aegi".. bansi
"yaar..sorry...aankh lag gayi thi"...kamal
"saale I m waiting 4 u for 2 hours..tu mujhe fail karaega"...bansi (Although he also slept in the meanwhile)
"nahin yaar bansi...tu kar lega".. kamal
"chal theek hai..koi nahin..lets start"...bansi (Sounding as if he is doing some kind of ehsaan on Kamal)
"bansi yaar.. " ..kamal
"Yaar thoda fresh ho jaate hain...Lets go to the park for a quick round."..kamal
'Quick..r u sure..saale tu mujhe fail karvaega"
"nahin tu kar lega"
Place - Park
Time - 5.30
Time left - 15.30 hours
Course completed - Nil
"yaar bansi..today she was wearing pink suit.. looking awesome"
(She's identity cant be revealed.. made a promise to kamal...so She'll be referred as 'She' in this blog)
"i know.." ..bansi
"She is so beautiful.." kamal
"Ya..Her figure is awesome"... bansi
"Kutte.. she is your bhabhi.."..kamal
"Ya...bhabhi's figure is awesome"...bansi
"Kutte..saale tum kutte log will never understand true love.."..kamal
"Yaar.. There is nothing like true love.. There is only one thing...".. bansi pulling kamal's leg
"You dirty fella..one day you will understand"..
"chal na"
Discussion goes on..
Time - 8.00 pm
Time left - 13 hours
Course completed - Nil
"Watt lag gayi yaar.."..bansi
"Chal yaar shuru kar de padhai.."..kamal
"Ok..tu peeche se kar..I'll start from the beginning'...bansi
"See u after an hour"...bansi
After Half an hour...
"Yaar bansi.. I cant study..main to pharre bana raha hoon"...kamal
"saale teri roz ki yahi kahaani hai"...bansi
"chal kal milte hain..paper main..bye"... kamal
Exam day
Place - DH1
Time - 8.45
Time left - 15 min
"Ho gaya course khatm"...kamal
"nahin saale... 2 chapter reh gaye"..bansi
"Mere to saare ho gaye.."kamal
"Saare chapters ke pharre bana liye"bansi
"yes"
"Chal..All the best"..bansi
"Same to you"...kamal
Exam ends..
Bansi meets Kamal..
"Yaar bansi..She was looking awesome in blue suit today..I couldn't concentrate.."..kamal excited
"Yaar paper was tough..Pass hoga ke nahin?".. bansi exhausted but confident
"Bansi yaar, She talked to me today..."... kamal
"What?"
"Aaj us ne mujh se pen maanga"..kamal
"Haha..chal saale..Kal SM ka paper hai..phati padi hai" bansi
"Haan..I.. .I .... 2 baje milte hain..bye" kamal
(Kamal goes to the library to get a chance to see her and talk to her, as she usually goes to library for her studies)
Bansi and Kamal meet at 2 pm at Bansi's house to 'study' for SM and the same saga continues.....
After few days, Result was declared
bansi - 73 %
kamal - 74 % (Abe dont think he is intelligent,pharre use kiye the us ne bhai..) .. But still dejected.. because..
..
...
....
..... He finally proposed her and got rejected..
[So you have read.. hmm... dirty mind]
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